The Labor Till Labor Day dare continues! My progress is very slow, but I still have high hopes of reaching my goals by the end of the month.
The trouble is, instead of “revising” the first four chapters of my novel, I’m trying to rewrite them from scratch. I’m throwing out every single word in the first draft. Most of the ideas remain the same, just rearranged and tweaked to better set the rest of the book in motion.
I knew I’d be rewriting these chapters. In my mind, I’ve given myself until August 15th to deal with them. The second half of the month is reserved for revising the other 16 chapters.
(Eep. When I say it like that, it sounds close to impossible! Nevertheless, that’s the goal.)
Progress is incredibly slow on these chapters. During the first draft, I gave myself permission to suck. But this is the second draft now, and even though I’m writing wholly new words, I do not feel the same freedom to suck. These words need to be the right ones. I feel a lot of pressure every time I sit down to write.
What I need to do is give myself the same freedom I had on the first draft. It’s not like the second draft will be the last one, for goodness’ sake! It’s not the end of the world if these chapters suck… hopefully they’ll be a little closer to what I want, and hopefully the rest of the book will be a lot closer.
What do you guys think? Does this ever happen to you? Do you handle a “page one rewrite” with the same freedom of a first draft, or do you expect it to be much better and cleaner?