As the last days of December fall away, I would normally do a recap post wherein I talk about how I did during the year in terms of Mind, Body, and Spirit, or some other random metric. But this year, I don’t wanna.
I struggled emotionally in 2010, mostly with financial and job stress. It was my best year ever in terms of my writing career, and that counts for a lot — but in my funny little brain place, I didn’t handle the year’s challenges with as much joy or energy as I would have liked.
On January 1st, I posted my goal for the year: I want to live with the passion and tenacity of the Tiger and the flexibility and wisdom of the Dragon.
I had a great, wonderful year in so many ways, but I don’t think I lived up to either the Tiger or the Dragon. I think I let my unemployment and financial worries impact my life too much. I gave them too much power. Looking back at the year, it’s not my lack of income I regret, it’s how much I let that stress get to me.
I had a great year, truly — full of new adventures and great friends and lots of love — and it deserved better from me.